Hey kids, long time no update eh?

Well, it's almost christmas .. I'm almost done my christmas shopping .. RELIEF! I hate shopping so much .. I basically spent 3 hours pushing my way through throngs of middle aged women all cackling and desperatly trying to get good deals on all the crap they seem to think their families want. Augh. I pray I don't turn into one of them... if I do, someone tell me please and I'll be sure to gouge my eyes out in penance.

So I'm moving out on Jan 1st WOO living by myself! Yeowch!!! It should be cool .. Devin promised me he'd spend lots of time at my place, which is AWESOME cuz I require unlimited amount of sex to live. Seriously. Sara and all them will spend lotsa time with me as well, so chances are good that I wont be driven insane from the constant unbearable loneliness.

You know, Katie came over yesterday to help me pack and I feel truly sorry for her. She keeps telling me that she wishes that she could have my life because I do so much and have so much fun etc and so forth .. I really pity her because all she has are Mike and Beth who SUCK *^%& .. fuck I really hate them lol. But yeah, and she wants me to incorporate her into my life and my friends.. but doesn't that seem rediculous ? You need to be your own person, right ? I don't want to simply hand her a slice of MY life .. christ.

I'm pissed cuz I was supposed to go to Vancouver with Chris on Sunday to see PSYL people and I didn't cuz I was all sick and bleh. Fuck.

Well, it's almost 4am .. I'm wearing sparkly antlers, listning to Smash Mouth, and praying that sleep will take over eventually. I think I'm going to go .. aaand... not do anything worth writing about whatsoever.

Well, another week gone by... tomorrow is Saturday, but I will be spending it at work woohoo!! After work I will probably go to Devin's house and chill, that'll be fun. He and I were up *really* late last night talking, and we got onto subjects like sex and love, and it was interesting how easy it was to talk about with him. I've never felt this way before, it's making me all emotional!! *teehee* .. stupid giggling. Fuckin' emotion.

Anyhoo, I had my call back for Lina yesterday and I think I did REALLY well (better then the others, I'm pretty sure) but i don't think I will get the part. Rebekkah didn't have as good a voice as me, BUT she was louder so I think maybe that will affect what happens... we'll see. I want this part SOOOO much!!! Augh!

My mom is really mad at me right now because I've been skipping class. I don't really know how to explain to her that it's ok, and I'm not failing.. I had to miss those days because of what I did to Brad. I needed the time to think and figure myself out and work out what i wanted to come next in my life. Methinks it's all okay now, but she's all worried/mad and I don't really know how to help her lol. OHHH and you know what? She wants to move to the U.S. to live with her boyfriend!! She told me that she wants to move in MARCH no less ... I mean, I don't really care if she wants to do that, because she's my mom and I want the best for her. But I don't know what I'D do .. both Sara and Devin said that I could come and live with them for the last 3 months of school, until we go to Europe.. but I would feel really bad, as if I was a burden or something. I'm actually a little scared because I don't know what will happen to me, but it is very comforting knowing that Sara and Devin have my back if I need a place to put myself for a few months, lol.